Of course you are. Honestly, I'd be concerned if you weren't. Everyone fears death on some level. I never claimed to be completely sane, but I was terrified when that hunter aimed his rifle at my head to make my end quick because despite all my beliefs in an afterlife, there's still that terror because I didn't know for certain what was coming next. Would there be an afterlife? If there was, what would it be like? What affect would my living actions have on it? If there wasn't, would I simply cease? Would everything I'd ever accomplished ultimately be for nothing?
[It'd been ninety years since he'd felt that terror, but he'd felt it again on the old Hazbin Hotel's roof when Adam's power broke through his defenses and sliced his microphone in half before a second strike nearly cleaved him in two. He'd gotten complacent in Hell and Reverein. He'd risked his existence in both places for people he'd become...accustomed to. The last time he'd used "friend", the lady in question had woken up from this shared dream. Best not to risk it here. While everything had worked out in both cases, it was his near-second death experience on the roof that made him realize how much of a bullet he'd dodged in Orkili when keeping the reactor from blowing up.]
The only people who know for certain what happens after death are those who died...and they're unable to tell the living what comes next.
[He looks up at where the Light Dragon disappeared.]
Of course you're afraid, and I won't tell you not to be. However, I will tell you that this is a situation you can't control. Learning to command her here won't matter in the end. Because eventually she's going to have to fly on her own, make decisions for situations you never even imagined. And I know that for a fact because the living me could've never fathomed the things I've come across in just ninety years after death. However, that isn't to say you won't have some influence.
She will always remember you just as I will always remember him. Even if the details fade, the names and faces blur as her own experiences fill her mind, your place in history becomes a footnote at best in your people's collective consciousness, you will always be with her in some capacity through your lingering influence affecting the choices she makes in the future.
You have every right to be terrified, but you've been given an opportunity here: You can make peace with your fate even as it scares you.
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[It'd been ninety years since he'd felt that terror, but he'd felt it again on the old Hazbin Hotel's roof when Adam's power broke through his defenses and sliced his microphone in half before a second strike nearly cleaved him in two. He'd gotten complacent in Hell and Reverein. He'd risked his existence in both places for people he'd become...accustomed to.
The last time he'd used "friend", the lady in question had woken up from this shared dream. Best not to risk it here.While everything had worked out in both cases, it was his near-second death experience on the roof that made him realize how much of a bullet he'd dodged in Orkili when keeping the reactor from blowing up.]The only people who know for certain what happens after death are those who died...and they're unable to tell the living what comes next.
[He looks up at where the Light Dragon disappeared.]
Of course you're afraid, and I won't tell you not to be. However, I will tell you that this is a situation you can't control. Learning to command her here won't matter in the end. Because eventually she's going to have to fly on her own, make decisions for situations you never even imagined. And I know that for a fact because the living me could've never fathomed the things I've come across in just ninety years after death. However, that isn't to say you won't have some influence.
She will always remember you just as I will always remember him. Even if the details fade, the names and faces blur as her own experiences fill her mind, your place in history becomes a footnote at best in your people's collective consciousness, you will always be with her in some capacity through your lingering influence affecting the choices she makes in the future.
You have every right to be terrified, but you've been given an opportunity here: You can make peace with your fate even as it scares you.