[ Susato tenses up, like perhaps she's just realized she let slip too much. It's not as though she means to burden Trahearne with any of this, but she is not interested in keeping him out, either.

She bites her lip in hesitation. ]

I'm not sure there is much to say. He was here for many months, and now... Now he is not.

Should I be grateful that he was not here to see me in such a state...? [ That night... ]