[She's wiping at her eyes again as fresh tears stream down her cheeks. At least, this time, these new tears seem to be alleviating the pain. It's like she's finally started to accept things a little.

Gently, she laughs, her voice a little worn as she speaks.]

More like, if he totally came back now and saw me crying, he'd have a field day. I'd never find peace if I gave him that much ammunition.

[Marui backing her up at least makes her feel like her reasoning is sound. It did make sense... Alvin wouldn't abandon her.

Of course, she is now acutely aware of how much rambling she did.]

Anyhow, I'm sorry I kinda just unloaded all of that onto you. And I know you're probably gonna tell me it's fine, but still...