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Noctis Lucis Caelum ([personal profile] sleepsalot) wrote in [community profile] songerein2023-05-02 06:19 pm

1 ⋙ closed log

Who: Noctis Lucis Caelum and Prompto Argentum
Which: Closed Log
Where: Prompto's tree-houose
What: They gotta talk about what happened after the dreamcatcher ooze
Warnings: likely talk about torture and all of the other bad times they had, will add more if needed



[ Trying to live some sort of normal life in Reverein was challenging, to say the least. Coming to grips with the fact that this reality was a dream and that life was operating as normal back on Eos, in Gralea or wherever they were by now was unsettling given what they were going through when both Noctis and Prompto showed up before being whisked away to the masquerade ball. And then there's the element of dreamotion, which Noctis has had such an incredibly difficult time harnessing; it brings his situation back home to the forefront of his mind, thinking about how he's struggled there, too. The whole situation just... sucks.

He has Prompto here with him to help him through this transition period, though, and he's here to help Prompto do the same. They were always on the same page, always operating on the same wavelength. Noctis is fairly certain that Ignis would likely argue that they shared a single braincell. Things had been going well, he thinks.

Had been being the key.

Going back into the castle was a mistake and one he'll readily admit, and he knows without having to ask that Prompto will agree. Seeing daemonic versions of Ravus and Lunafreya, of his father, did nothing but set him back fifty steps... And hearing Ardyn's voice, that infuriating voice that echoed in his ear as he raced through Zegnautus Keep trying to find Prompto, shattered every bit of himself he'd been trying to put back together. The way Prompto just froze when his own fears brought about an ooze covered Ardyn stays in his mind, it's an image he can't seem to shake. They barely had time to talk after they found Prompto back in Gralea; Noctis doesn't even know the half of what happened to him after he pushed him off of the train. Hearing and seeing Ardyn in the castle explains why they've barely spoken in the past few days, why he can see right through Prompto's smiles and sunshine he's showing to everybody else.

He drags himself off of his bed and scrubs a hand over his face, having made the decision that they need to talk and the sooner the better, because things just weren't the same between them right now and he hates it, hates seeing his best friend like this. So, after a minute debating on when to have this talk, he settles with it's now or never. It's Prompto, they've had heart-to-hearts before, talked about tough shit, so why is he nervous? There's nothing to be nervous about... right?

Shaking the thought from his head, and trying to calm himself, Noctis makes his way across the small bridge that separates their treehouses and opens the door (because why would he knock? it's Prompto. Best friend privileges or something like that). ]


Prom? You home?
chocobosnap: (Sadness)

[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-03 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ Prompto is in short - all kinds of fucked up. It's not Noctis' fault that this is the case and it's not really his fault he's been avoiding him and everyone else if he can help it. No, Prompto's rattled to his very core. It's incredibly Eos-shattering to be faced to face with Ardyn. Time away from the man has both helped and hurt. He's had time to let the adrenaline rush leave and he's had time to hurt.

A lot of hurt.

Prompto is having nightmare after nightmare. He's got huge bags under his eyes despite his smiles. When he thinks no one is looking, he's staring off into the distance lost in thought and memory.

He knows he has to be stronger than this. He knows he has to shake it. It's just so hard. He knows Noctis doesn't need to feel more guilt for what happened. It wasn't his fault. He came for him, he saved him, Prompto owes him an incredible debt. He was trying so hard not to fall apart.

There's nothing to hide behind in this dream world. He's being forced to face his fears head on and he's scared. Terrified.

Prompto's balcony door opens to a kitchen with an eat-in table. The doorway leads into the living room and Prompto had been dozing a little bit. A new habit he's picked up with the sheer lack of ordinary sleep.

At the moment his face is filled with the raw expression of hurt, exhaustion and he's barely rubbing the sleep out of his eyes before he registers Noct is even there. ]


Hey dude, 'sup? [ He asks, tilting his head a little. He looks so tired and weary, but still he summons a smile for Noctis, one that doesn't reach his eyes. ]
chocobosnap: (Who do you mean?)

[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-05 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Prompto hadn't agreed with Gladio pushing Noctis so hard at the time, but that's because he is the type to retreat, he is the type of person who would keep his problems to himself.

He was tired and overwrought and he was trying to keep it together, but Noctis' bluntness makes Prompto sink down a little bit, all of his effort to do that just melting away. ]


Yeah, uh, thanks.

[ Not the best opening, not the best answer either. Prompto can't deny it, but he gives a joke another try. ]

I haven't put my face on yet, you're not supposed to see that. [ Is it funny? It might be if he didn't sound so devastated at the same time. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-09 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ It doesn't matter if Noctis has couched this in a more pleasant way, the words still send a shiver down his spine, especially after he qualifies it, cementing exactly what he wants to talk about.

Prompto sighs and shifts in his seat. Anyone else he might've told them to piss off but it's Noctis and he can't do that. ]


I don't think we do.

[ It's a soft counter, there's not much conviction behind it. Noctis' hunch is right, Prompto doesn't want to have this conversation. In fact, he'd like to just forget the last little while on Eos happened. ]

I know I screwed up. [ He totally dissociated on Noct and that's on him. He needs to...not do that. He needs to be better than that. ] It won't happen again. Promise.

[ He can't realistically make that promise, but he's going to try anyway. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-09 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ He hears the rebuke and deflates a little bit. He knows he can keep fighting it, but that doesn't mean he should. Prompto also knows that Noctis would never actually force him. He really doesn't want to talk about it. They hadn't had enough time after...after. Noctis is right. He was in no shape to talk about it that night. ]

I did though. I'm not supposed to drag you down. I swore I wouldn't, I- [ Prompto is insecure, he always has been but the experience he went through didn't help. Not at all. He sighs, not really sure how he's going to convince Noctis he screwed up. He isn't going to be able to. ]

I'd...rather ignore it. Just pretend it didn't happen.

[ That was his plan. The best plan. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-11 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ Prompto has always kept his pain close to the vest. He's never really wanted to burden Noctis with it, and it's not a commentary on his best friend...he just doesn't want to be a bummer all the time. But his coping mechanisms are failing him, it's becoming apparent he is not okay.

He doesn't feel the strain, but it's not surprising. He grimaces at the point that they can't just forget it.

Then Noctis continues and his eyes go wide, Prompto sucks in a gasp. ]


Are you freakin' serious right now? [ He leans forward to grasp Noctis' hand if he'll let him have it. ]

I wanted to come! I wanted to do that! [ That's the first point, but he frowns and glances away. Does Noctis regret asking him? ]

You probably saved my life anyway. [ He mumbled. ] Not that many people made it out of Insomnia. I'd probably have died...and and...and you came for me! You made it stop!
chocobosnap: (Who do you mean?)

[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-18 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)
That's not what I mean, Six, I mean why you feel so guilty...don't. [ There, it's blunt. ]

Yeah, he tricked you. I don't blame you for that. I believe that you tried...I held out hope that you would try. For awhile-

[ Prompto grimaced a little bit and looked away. ]

Look...I... sometimes I'm not that strong, you know? I mean if you need to know what happened then I...guess I should come clean about it.

[ Noctis won't be happy, for a lot of reasons, he knows that. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-22 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Uh...yeah okay... [ Prompto is responding to having his hand held though, he squeezes it instinctively, like he needs something to hold onto. He probably does. None of this is pretty. ]

Um. He came and you pushed me off the train. We covered that. [ He murmurs and sighs softly, thinking about it. ]

It was uh, the middle of nowhere. Snow. A ton of snow. Just like. Snow everywhere. And uh, I walked around for awhile. Trying to find...something. Somewhere. Anywhere. And I remember collapsing. I was too tired. Everything was white and I heard-

[ Prompto's brow furrows, shaking his head. ] Uh. MTs I think. I lost consciousness.
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-05-26 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
I...yeah they did? I mean someone did. Someone got me. I don't...I was unconscious awhile I think.

[ Maybe from the cold, maybe from the rough tumble off the train, it's hard to say. ]

I woke up in a base. The uh, First Magitek Production Facility. [ His tone is a bit more absent, like he's lost in thought, or more likely dissociating a bit from the conversation. Locking down his feelings to protect himself. ]

Um, he was there to make fun of me. And he told me, you know, about my wrist and to use it. I'd been disarmed but...he gave me a gun. Thing is when I scan this thing it puts all the MTs on high alert so like- they come after me? Because I'm compromised? So...everything was immediately hostile.

[ A game. It was like a game for Ardyn. To watch him struggle like a mouse caught in a trap. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-06-01 10:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah...I was glad to see you. Just...yeah.

[ He doesn't want to say he doubted Noct, he did and he didn't but he's weak. He's as weak as anyone would be while being tortured. ]

So uh, right. Production facility.

[ Noctis asked. His king, but more importantly, his best friend is right there and he needs to tell him everything. ]

Made my way through it, most of the way alone. I...found all these data logs and other clones and stuff. It's- it was a lot. It's still...I felt sick. It still makes me feel sick.

[ All of those people. He's not Ardyn, he doesn't think their values are worth less because of how they were born. ]

In- I encountered someone. The lead scientist. Besithia. Verstael Besithia. He said he's- [ He said he's a disappointment is what he said, but everyone says that to him. His adoptive parents were just garbage at it too. ]

He gave his genetic material and I- I'm his clone. We're all his clones and uh... He was going to add me to his project like the others. He k-killed them to... [ Deep breaths now. ] To make a big weapon. With their souls or some sick shit and I just...I killed him. I killed a man. I am- I killed him.

[ He tears up, not because he's sad for Besithia, but more because he didn't want to kill anyone.

That...is just not realistic in this job though. It was the first life he knew he'd taken. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-06-08 06:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He doesn't break down in sobs, and he seems to be breathing okay, but he does rest his head on Noct's shoulder without a thought. Tears are still sliding down his cheeks, but it's less dramatic than one might think. ]

I know. I didn't have a choice. I didn't.

[ He takes in a shuddering breath. ] I almost cracked right there but uh, Aranea. I saw her. She told me where to go. We met up in the hangar with the snowmobiles and fled the facility.

[ He's still not in Zegnautus, there's more to this story. ]

We got split up though and when I was alone, I thought-

[ He breathes some more. ] All of them. I've killed all of them. Even though the Empire hurt them first, but I don't think- they're not to blame for just existing. I can't blame them for that. All those people. [ He gulps, the sound suggesting he might be feeling nauseous working himself up like that. But he steadies himself. ]

I was going to burn it off. My barcode. I wanted to burn it. Aranea stopped me. I figured it didn't matter because I'm the same as them. I thought- I thought that meant I was evil like them at first...but now, after thinking about it...I feel bad for them. They didn't ask for this.

[ That...is some very self-destructive behaviour and ideation. If he wasn't speaking to Noctis, he would never admit it. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-06-11 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He knows Noctis might not agree with him, but at the same time now it's all he can think, because he saw it. He witnessed what they did to those people and Noctis didn't. But that's okay. Even going forward, what remains of them in the MT armor will still have to be put down. There's no saving them. He's empathetic. ]

It's...not that bad. [ His voice is wavering, like he's not able to convince himself, let alone Noctis. ]

Uh. Yeah. So. He made this super weapon and Aranea and I took it down. [ He's just going to skip over his mental breakdown. That's enough for now. He doesn't want to think about it. Noctis probably gets it. ]

Then I was able to just go....but really he was just letting me go. I didn't get that far before I was captured and the rest of the time I was...well...mostly how you found me. At his mercy. He did everything he could think of. He told me you'd never come for me. He always talks like he owns me. Like...Like I'm nothing. Just an MT.

[ Which fundamentally he is, but also he's a person. ]

But I believed in you.
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-06-14 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Holding Noctis' hand is not a problem for him and he leans forward, his head landing on Noct's shoulder anyway. He's tired. It's too exhausting to talk about all of this, facing all of this. ]

He seemed to figure everything out. He played with my every fear. He kept me trapped in that thing and did anything he could think of.

[ His body trembles as he takes a deep breath. ]

It hurt.

[ He's just tired. He can hear that same voice in his nightmares. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-06-26 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He knows as well as Noctis probably does that it's a promise that Noctis might not be able to keep, but as Prompto sinks a little heavier against him, there's no point in protesting it. He knows he's supposed to be the one protecting Noct here, but Astrals, let him have this. Just a few minutes of being taken care of. That's all he wants or needs right then.

He takes in shuddering breaths as he calms down, he's nodding a bit. He's okay. He's just...unstable. A wreck. He feels like a wreck. He can't begin to describe the details of torture or does he want to. It was too much. ]


Yeah...I...I hope so. [ He swallows. ]

I keep seeing him, he's haunting me I just... yeah. It's. A lot.
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-07-02 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He sighs a little bit and he wants to protest - 'it's not that bad' - it's been his mantra his whole life. Noctis doesn't really know that, and in this case, it's not true. It is that bad, and he just sighs a little. ]

Yeah, uh, you can stay if you want.

[ He'd never kick Noctis out anyway, why would he? He just feels so emotionally drained it's exhausting. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-07-05 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He rewards Noctis with a shaky smile. ] Like Lestallum huh. So you're saying I have to let you share my bed. [ He's teasing, and also, that's fine. ]

I guess it's fine, as long as you don't kick me.

[ He leans against Noctis, just because he can. ]

Yeah. I appreciate it Noct. Really. You are the best friend I could ever have. You can't convince me otherwise.
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-07-14 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's fine to just relax that way. ]

You're so mean. You come here, in my own house, and threaten to kick me!

[ Prompto tilts his head back so Noct can see him and pouts at him. ]
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[personal profile] chocobosnap 2023-08-01 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Well... [ He sighs as though put upon. ]

Seeing as you are the ever so great ruler of our kingdom and all that, obviously I'm going to shove you off the bed and beat you with a pillow.

[ Only the best treatment for their king. ]