Of course I-

[... She realizes, even as she's saying it, that it's a lie. She hasn't wanted that in a long time. Maybe even before she came to the city. She doesn't know what she wants.]

I wanted to, then. It was all I cared about. Being deemed worthy. Carrying on Father's legacy. I deserved it. I'd done everything I was supposed to.

[It feels so empty now, and she can't even articulate why.]