I did, only because I never learned it in the first place and the guy that had been teaching me was doing so purely through emotions...

[ Or rather, tying the flow of magic to his emotions. More positive ones. That's how Vanitas had initially known that he had gotten to the point where he had been capable of having them. ]

I had to think about the snowball fight, at first. It was the only thing that made me feel something close to happiness at first. Until you came along, anyway.