I am not certain of that. On some level, I suspect I desired it. On another, I suspect I sought the validation and approval of those around me. I doubt very much it was fully a personal desire.

[She shakes her head.]

Rarely is anything ever that simple or straight forward. All things possess a certain complexity to them. The wants and desires of people are oft not as simple either. What brought about your interest in keyblades? Necessity, mayhap?