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closed ⚡🌠 can we come back from this
Who: Eustace & Tifa
Which: Closed log
Where: Their treehouse, corgi tree, maybe some other places
What: After Eustace's Noctaere episode, he and Tifa try to put their relationship back together.
Warnings: Trauma, lots of sads, and then probably gross fluff after.
[It had been a struggle even getting home. After they and the others had arrived at Ori's home together, it was at Tifa's insistence that she and Eustace go back to theirs. For as grateful and appreciative as she was for all their help in saving the both of them, there are some things that Tifa would rather they be alone for, and this... whatever this is, is one of them. Never mind the guilt that she feels for having been the one to put them all through it—Eustace can argue with her all he likes, and they can all contend that they shouldn't feel that way, that none of it was her fault, but ever since she woke up from her weakened and frozen state, Tifa couldn't look any one of them in the eye.
Including Eustace.
Even as she walks with their arms slung around each other for support with Eria at their side, the journey home is silent. Only the stirrings of dawn can be heard—the birds that chirp in the canopies, the sound of dew dripping from the leaves, but nothing is quite so loud as their staggered footsteps, or her heart beating wildly in her chest, and her blood roaring in her ears.
Tifa tries to keep her anxiety to a minimum, tries to keep her thoughts straight, but all she can see are the claws of those lindworms as they came down to strike, and their scales that shimmered as they slithered around her. All she can hear are his desperate cries, and the sound of ice and electricity crackling as her vision darkened and her consciousness had begun to fade... She remembers the chill, the grips of death when it threatened to consume her, how cold his fingers were as they brushed against her face. The red in his eyes...
And then when she woke and saw the destruction he'd left behind. Saw her friends bruised and battered from battle. Saw him like that...
The thought is cut short by a sharp breath when they finally arrive at the foot of the stairs leading up to their home, her boot bumping against them when she hadn't been paying attention. The climb up is as dreadful as everything else had been, and she can feel the heat under her boots, the fires that try to claw their way out of the cage she tries to lock them in, to struggle against the trail of ice that forms in their wake. Even the tree's branches and leaves shudder as they walk through the front door, the flowers that decorate their tree that were once bright and vibrant freezing over and shriveling up, dying without a fighting chance.
It isn't until they're safely inside that Tifa so much as looks at him for the first time since they were at Ori's. Perhaps even before. Really looks at him. He's bruised and cut up, and he looks more tired than she's ever seen him.
Her hands fold together as she skirts her gaze away again, down to where she tries to stop her fingers from trembling when she bites back the urge to sob.
Tifa wants to say something, but... what is she even supposed to say? What can she say right now that would make this easier for both of them? She searches and searches her mind for an answer to the question that's been wracking her since they left the cliffside, but she's still coming up short of nothing.
Eria trots over and nudges Tifa with her nose, as if to encourage her to say something to break this tense silence before it all snaps. So, she blurts out the first thing that comes to mind in a voice so tiny that she's not even sure she's said anything at all, and it crackles, as if this is the first time she's ever spoken a word in her life. It certainly feels that way right now.]
... Do you want to get cleaned up first?
[First.
She kicks herself for it. Any other day and she would have suggested together, but her fear—not of him, but fear for them—is getting the better of her, and maybe that's for the best.]
Which: Closed log
Where: Their treehouse, corgi tree, maybe some other places
What: After Eustace's Noctaere episode, he and Tifa try to put their relationship back together.
Warnings: Trauma, lots of sads, and then probably gross fluff after.
[It had been a struggle even getting home. After they and the others had arrived at Ori's home together, it was at Tifa's insistence that she and Eustace go back to theirs. For as grateful and appreciative as she was for all their help in saving the both of them, there are some things that Tifa would rather they be alone for, and this... whatever this is, is one of them. Never mind the guilt that she feels for having been the one to put them all through it—Eustace can argue with her all he likes, and they can all contend that they shouldn't feel that way, that none of it was her fault, but ever since she woke up from her weakened and frozen state, Tifa couldn't look any one of them in the eye.
Including Eustace.
Even as she walks with their arms slung around each other for support with Eria at their side, the journey home is silent. Only the stirrings of dawn can be heard—the birds that chirp in the canopies, the sound of dew dripping from the leaves, but nothing is quite so loud as their staggered footsteps, or her heart beating wildly in her chest, and her blood roaring in her ears.
Tifa tries to keep her anxiety to a minimum, tries to keep her thoughts straight, but all she can see are the claws of those lindworms as they came down to strike, and their scales that shimmered as they slithered around her. All she can hear are his desperate cries, and the sound of ice and electricity crackling as her vision darkened and her consciousness had begun to fade... She remembers the chill, the grips of death when it threatened to consume her, how cold his fingers were as they brushed against her face. The red in his eyes...
And then when she woke and saw the destruction he'd left behind. Saw her friends bruised and battered from battle. Saw him like that...
The thought is cut short by a sharp breath when they finally arrive at the foot of the stairs leading up to their home, her boot bumping against them when she hadn't been paying attention. The climb up is as dreadful as everything else had been, and she can feel the heat under her boots, the fires that try to claw their way out of the cage she tries to lock them in, to struggle against the trail of ice that forms in their wake. Even the tree's branches and leaves shudder as they walk through the front door, the flowers that decorate their tree that were once bright and vibrant freezing over and shriveling up, dying without a fighting chance.
It isn't until they're safely inside that Tifa so much as looks at him for the first time since they were at Ori's. Perhaps even before. Really looks at him. He's bruised and cut up, and he looks more tired than she's ever seen him.
Her hands fold together as she skirts her gaze away again, down to where she tries to stop her fingers from trembling when she bites back the urge to sob.
Tifa wants to say something, but... what is she even supposed to say? What can she say right now that would make this easier for both of them? She searches and searches her mind for an answer to the question that's been wracking her since they left the cliffside, but she's still coming up short of nothing.
Eria trots over and nudges Tifa with her nose, as if to encourage her to say something to break this tense silence before it all snaps. So, she blurts out the first thing that comes to mind in a voice so tiny that she's not even sure she's said anything at all, and it crackles, as if this is the first time she's ever spoken a word in her life. It certainly feels that way right now.]
... Do you want to get cleaned up first?
[First.
She kicks herself for it. Any other day and she would have suggested together, but her fear—not of him, but fear for them—is getting the better of her, and maybe that's for the best.]
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It's not ready yet. You could have slept a little longer.
[Although Tifa knows that feeling of not wanting to sleep any longer after she had woken up from the dream. The nightmares have lessened, but that didn't mean that they weren't still at risk of being locked inside them, and if she had a choice, she would have woken up too... so she won't scold him for it either.]
Sorry I left. Didn't think I'd wake up so suddenly, but figured I'd get a head start on the morning for you.
[And she turns around to press a kiss to the side of his head.]
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S'fine... Missed you...
[Does he even know what he's saying? The sweet smell of pancakes and the rich aroma of bacon is stimulating his senses...but her scent mixed in with it makes for a more delicious scent as he starts to nuzzle her neck.]
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I missed you too.
[Even with him only in the next room sound asleep, she missed that secure, warm feeling of him next to her, so this is a welcome change. But before he can do much else, she'll spin around with his arms still around her so that they're facing one another, and she lifts his chin to press a light kiss to his lips.]
Good morning, [she offers more properly now, and she begins to slowly guide him to the couch rather than the table.] You should relax. I'll bring the food to you.
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...
He'll pull her arm so that she falls onto his lap, his arms wrapping around her once more as he flops back, taking her down with him.]
Later.
[This rascal.]
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It's only when Clover mewls happily in greeting before going back to sleep that Tifa sees her there, and she giggles and drops her face flat to his chest, and her arms wrap around him tight.]
... The bacon is going to burn.
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[And he just holds her closer to him, pretending as if he won't let her go. But he will because the bacon wouldn't be the only thing burning.
There's also someone else who doesn't want burnt bacon, and that's Eria.
Who has also brought the dogs back for the morning.
The door bursts open at that point, dogs barking loudly as they smell the delicios breakfast. DO THEY GET TO HAVE SOME the young ones are definitely gathering by the cooking pan, sniffing.
UGGGHHH it's like that wolf knows how to ruin everything, and Eustace will raise his arms up so that Tifa can get up before disaster strikes.
Which may also be a mistake because once Tifa is off Eria will jump on him (Oof!)]
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[It's then that the door flies open and with it, corgis. Many, many corgis. And some flower petals that the crisp morning breeze blows in too. Their choir of barks has already started, and Tifa only lifts her head at first to them all bound inside and straight to the kitchen where the bacon is sizzling, while the older ones trot over to greet Eustace and Tifa. Clover hops down from her perch and gives a wide stretch and a yawn before she's slowly making her way to the bedroom for some quiet—it's still way too early in the morning for her.
Idris hops up on his back legs to try and get a good sniff at the pan, and that's when Tifa bounds up to her feet and across the room to stop him.]
No, no! We don't go near the stove. It's hot and you'll burn your little paws.
[She kneels down and takes Idris by his paws, giving them a squeeze before she forces him down. Their bums all wiggle with excitement as they sit in a circle around Tifa, and she only looks back over her shoulder to Eustace with a sheepish, amused smile before she's getting back to work with prepping, making sure to get some extra crispy strips of bacon for the dogs.
It's chaotic, living like this, and anyone else think they might be crazy to have all of these dogs in their home at the same time, but it's this kind of chaos that Tifa has come to treasure and look forward to every day. Whether it's here or at the other trees, it reminds her that she still has a family to take care of here, and that she enjoys doing it.
Fortunately, it won't take long before she's padding over to the couch again, urging Eria to move so that she can sit as she sets down their plates, and she returns to grab their coffees as well... with all of the dogs in tow, following her back and forth between the living room and the kitchen. And as soon as she sits down next to Eustace, she looks across at the line of ears that peek up from the other side of the coffee table, their eyes staring at the plate of bacon.
....
.....]
Did you tell Eria to bring them by this morning?
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What. He can't cuddle with his wife???
But he does give them attention, rubbing his arm along Eria's back as she nestles up on his back while Eustace uses his other hand to scratch the corgis' ears, ruffling them as they settle in. It's chaos, but...it's one he, too, enjoys and prefers, the noise making the house and his life that much more filling.
It won't be until Tifa comes with the feed that he's finally able to sit up, Eria sticking to his other side as the other dogs gather around.]
No, but you know how she is.
[He's also eying the dogs. Don't they have their own bowls??]
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I do.
[Tifa shoots a pointed glance at Eria, but it breaks into a smile because this, right here, is the thing that gets her up every morning.
And now she's nodding in Idris' direction, and Aerona joins him with her chin up on the table too with pleading, begging looks in their eyes as they flick between dad and the crispy bacon.]
Well?
[She nudges her head in their direction.]
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...
.......
Tsk.]
Line up quietly and you can all have one piece.
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Tifa picks up the plate and pushes aside the crispier strips for him to take, picking one out herself and snapping it in half for them all to share, and she giggles when their ears swivel in her direction. One by one, they line up and trot forward, and Tifa hands him the pieces to feed as she breaks them, and they eagerly gobble them all up with the younger ones sitting down and hoping for more.]
No. The rest is for us.
[And she'll pointedly plate the rest for herself and Eustace because dad said one piece, and together, Idris and Aerona whine and skulk away with their half strips of bacon together.]
... Wasn't expecting to have such a busy morning.
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Mm...
...
But it's not so bad.
[He then leans over and kisses her sweetly on the side of her head.]
Thanks for making this.
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[She hums happily and leans to meet him halfway for that kiss, a flush rising in her cheeks. There's something about being able to take care of him like this that makes her heart feel warm and full, and watching him and the dogs enjoy their food so early in the morning just reminds her of all the things that she—they still have to fight for.
Leaning forward to start on her pancakes, she shuffles her feet so that Caerwyn can rest against her legs and keep them warm, and she rewards him with a brief scratch behind the ears.]
I hope you like it. I've been experimenting with recipes so the pancakes might be a little fluffier than normal.
[And true to her word, they are thicker and definitely fluffier than normal.]
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[He takes a mouthful and his eyes light up briefly at the fluffy taste.]
It tastes good to me... All of your cooking does.
[And then he's reminded of something and grins a little as he glances at her.]
As long as it doesn't have little flowers suddenly sprouting, that is.
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Hey! I've gotten better at that.
[And, as if to make a point, Tifa opens her fist and little glowing starflower petals flutter out of it onto his plate, and she grins at him before turning back to her food.]
I bet I could work them in and it would still taste fine.
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Hm...would it taste more like you? If so, don't use them for anyone else.
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[Eria makes a small noise next to Eustace and gives them both a withering "not in front of the kids" look, and Tifa looks at her briefly before stealing the flower between her fingers and lifting it to her nose.]
It's not like you need to ask for pancakes.
["OH PLEASE," whines Eria.]
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No...I prefer just taking them for myself.
[But of course before he can kiss Tifa, Eria actually grabs the back of his shirt and yanks him back.
THIS IS NOT THE BREAKFAST THEY NEED TO HAVE RIGHT NOW. Or so how loud growling and grumbling suggests. But Eustace half expected something like this so he just laughs.]
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It's alright. Nothing wrong with having pancakes for lunch... or dinner.
[The dogs all perk up then, small boofs of "bacon? More bacon?" coming from around the table and Tifa buries her grin in a sip of coffee.]
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Not for you.
[Just cutting their hopes and dreams right now.]
Any plans for the day?
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[Her brows arch with curiosity, and she lowers her cup.]
Not that I know of. Was just planning on staying in for the day.
[Then again, that's been pretty much every day which is surprising... She imagined herself working day in an day out at the Harvest a week ago, or cleaning the house until she scrubbed the wood raw, but she's been taking that much-needed rest that everyone has told her to. It feels a bit strange not having any plans or not being busy with anything for once... but...
Surprisingly, it's been nice.]
Why? Did you have something in mind?
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[He reaches down to Cadoc who is by his knee, ruffling his ears.]
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After breakfast, let's get cleaned up and go. Wouldn't mind the fresh air, and... Could probably check up on both trees, to be honest.
[How long has it been since they've taken a walk to the flower's tree too???
But all of the dogs at least seem to agree, with the way that a few of them speak up, others lifting their heads the moment they hear the word "walk".]
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Should we make a little trip out of it?
[Like a picnic...they really could use the break.]
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[And so, the choir of barks grows ever louder. Tifa is already cutting herself a bigger bite of her pancake and stuffing it into her mouth, not bothering to finish chewing it before she speaks with puffy cheeks and a crinkled nose.]
A little family date.
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(frozen comment) fin~