open 🔸 perfectly reasonable decisions

[noblegarnet]

Who: Ferran & you!
Which: open log
Where: network, wilderness, wastelands, around town
What: Ferran has had enough of holding back.
Warnings: hallucinations, violence

A ♦ Network

[While Ferran only meant to send this to his friends, it's entirely possible he may have slipped up at some point because magic journals are finicky and he never bothered with the details of this one. Whoops!]

I'm going to do something stupid. [......] Okay, I've been doing stupid things, but this is different, and I don't know if it's more or less stupid. I have like three failsafes on me, but I really don't know what to expect.

[Encouraging!]

Anyway, if you see me around later and I'm doing something terrible, get someone to beat me up, please. [Or do it yourself, he's not picky.]

B

[Later, about an hour's walk north from town is where Ferran's decided to conduct the aforementioned stupidity. He checks his coat pocket for one of his last healing talismans, his internal coat pocket for a handful of the blue petals Susato gave him, and one of his pants pockets for a moon crystal.

Having confirmed the presence of them all, he rubs a hand down his face and shakes his head like he's trying to dislodge his nerves.]

Alright, come on, Ferran. It'll be fine. Even if it's not great.

[He takes a steadying breath, putting a hand over his ever-present necklace. It's far from the first time he's channeled his powers intentionally. If using them hasn't triggered anything horrible so far, a step further won't be a problem, right?]

C

[All of this has been for the sake of doing something... a little more productive, in a dangerous sense. He knows from experience what kind of things can happen when magical crystals aren't kept in check—so he's out in the Wastelands closer to the middle of the month with whoever else has decided to take on the unpleasant task. What's the point of him having all these powers if he doesn't use them to help?

Just don't ask him where he got the healing magic.]

Wildcard

[Ferran can also be found looking into the world tree with some interest, or simply around town doing normal errands. At first glance, it seems like he's being followed... but wait, where did they go? There was definitely something there a second before. How strange.]

Comments

A - for now

[darkcharge]

Well well well. I'm so glad that you can finally admit it.

After, I feel like someone has been telling you this for a while.

>:3!!

[noblegarnet]

Look, I was never going to argue I haven't done things that were a bad idea for me. But I've been weighing the pros and the cons.

[So what if you're right!!]

And I did take a break from the things that were physically stupid to do things that were emotionally stupid for a while.

[darkcharge]

You can't say that you've been trading one sort of stupidity for another.

It doesn't count for anything, Ferran.

[noblegarnet]

I beg to differ. I got to physically recover while I was suffering mentally. It's a balancing act.

[He's just being contrary now...]

Anyway, I'm better on both fronts at the moment, so it's a better time to test things than in the middle of some disaster.

[darkcharge]

Scars on the inside take longer to heal than on the outside.

[ Don't play this game with him ]

[noblegarnet]

Vanitas, if I sat around waiting for all of those to fully heal, I'd never get anything done.

[make him.]

[darkcharge]

Maybe you shouldn't for a change.

[noblegarnet]

[He could try to argue that he hasn't done much of anything in the past two months, but it feels kind of pointless, so instead—]

One of these days I'm going to do something risky that turns out well for you and you're going to be grateful. You won't ever admit it, but I'll know, and that will be enough for me.

[darkcharge]

You know I'd probably smack you on the head for doing "something risky" for me.

[ And be thankful, but he doesn't need to admit to that sort of thing out loud. ]

[noblegarnet]

That one's a given. I know better than to think you'd be nice about anything.

[He means this as a jest, really...]

It's just part of the risk involved.

[darkcharge]

Excuse you. I can be nice.

[ Conditionally... ]

[noblegarnet]

Don't get me wrong, Vanitas, I've seen you do things that are helpful, good, and even kind! But I don't think nice has ever been part of those.

I'm open to being proven wrong, though it might take me a minute to get over the shock.

[darkcharge]

Wow. I have no idea if I should be taking that as an insult or a complement.

[noblegarnet]

I like you just the way you are, don't worry. It's nice to have a break from the sugary sunshine types sometimes, right?

[darkcharge]

You are being gross Ferran.

Stop hanging around soft-hearted people so much.

[noblegarnet]

[Success! His compliment hit the mark.]

I've got bad news for you. I AM a soft-hearted person.

Also no.

[darkcharge]

If you were really that soft, then you'd listen to people when they're

[ and all he'll see is a giant ink spot. Vanitas had been about to say something... Incriminating. ]

[noblegarnet]

[Ohohoho! He sees through that attempt at erasing the evidence, Vani.]

"worried about you"? Now who's the one who's spent too much time around soft-hearted types?

[... more seriously.]

I am listening, though. I promise I'll be okay. I just might need to get smacked a couple of times, that's all.

[darkcharge]

Don't you dare go and put words into my mouth. Unfortunately, there WOULD be people that cared enough. There always will be, statistically.

[ Definitely trying to play off that it isn't him. Yupp yupp ]

[noblegarnet]

Alright, Mr. Math Man...

[One day Vanitas will actually say something sappy aloud and he won't be able to erase that.]

I get it, really. This is me being cautious. If that's any comfort to that statistical population.