songerein | [open!] you're only everything I ever dreamed

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[open!] you're only everything I ever dreamed

Who: The Kingdom Hearts cast + You!
Which: Open Log!
Where: The collection of treehouses that the cast has made! And other areas!
What: An open log for residents and adjacent CR to come and go. Top levels inside!
Warnings: tba!

[Now that the residents of Songerein are settling in it seems that a group of uncanny key kids (and a few others) have come together to make a nice little collection of connecting treehouses. The houses are dreamed up and put together with a patchwork of wooden bridges and boards and spruced up with fairy lights that glow and hang from the rafters. The treehouses are high in the canopies of thick trees and the balcony sections are open and breezy for any visitors to come to walk up the steps and see.

Down below the treehouses on the ground seems to be a rather flourishing garden of sunflowers. Where they come from or how they sprouted is still unclear. But it is joined with a rather chubby-looking chicken that pecks at the ground occasionally. Along with the grazing chicken, there seems to be a whoosh of dragonfly wings as a large dragonfly has taken to the treehouse as a home too. And what is this? It seems they might have a small collection of blue birds that won't leave the house alone. What other creatures are out and about?

Dreammotion energy seems to be strong around the treehouses. As the trees house a collection of boys with vivid and wild imaginations. Sometimes lights will flicker brighter or plants will bloom with various strange flowers. And the smell of baking chocolate and cookies is always in the air.]

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[ It's because sometimes he doesn't know what to do. The feelings are so intense. So overwhelming. The moments of happiness. Fulfillment. Contentment. Vanitas feels so full to the point of running over and what is he to do in those moments?

He rests his forehead against Sora's. ]

You better. If you don't, then I will come after you and it won't be pleasant.

[ A kiss is given. A kiss is returned. ]

I don't want to miss anyone else.

[It's so crazy to feel how much Vanitas just makes his heart squeeze like that. When he lets his guard down and says things that he really means. It happens often now. But vulnerability and honesty are appreciated. Even the threats.]

I give you permission to beat me up if I don't keep my promise.

[Kisses are given and that poor pet cat with wings is probably thinking "really? right in front of my salad?"]

[ This poor cat is probably so used to it by now, truth be told. It's not like Vanitas and Sora keep their hands to themselves after all. They always seem to be engaging in some physical contact after all. ]

Tch. I'll do more than beat you up. You know I wouldn't be satisfied with only that...

[ Probably beat him senseless then kiss him breathless. ]

I count on that.

[He grins after that making sure to at least pinch Vanitas in the side playfully before he pats the kitten on the head again.]

But! We've made it this far together! Who knows what will happen to us next! I think we'll be able to make a lot of new friends here. And I think Mira would want us to keep going.

[ He might pinch Vanitas, but Van? He's grabbing at Sora again and giving him a firm kiss to the cheek. Maybe a little wet just to be something of a brat. ]

She would. That doesn't mean I am really looking to make any new friends, Sora.

[ Vanitas is still not the best at it. ]

[Sora will make a noise of small annoyance but he'll let the wet kiss happen. Vanitas cooties are just something he lives with now.]

Hey, you might not be able to control that part. You're gonna make friends one way or another.

[It's going to happen. Accept it! Vanitas is better at this than he thinks he is! Sora believes in him too!]

[ Just like Sora cooties are something he has to contend with. Daily. ]

Augh. You're probably right, but that doesn't mean that I have to really acknowledge it. Honestly I just think that places like these introduce people that are outliers and that it's just going to -

[ Set him up for when they go back home. That's what he had been about to say. Which causes him to frown. See, this implies quite a few things. That 1) he will be going back to their home and not to die and that 2) he still thinks that people aren't going to like him and that's something he seems to care about! ]

Never mind.

[Sora really screeches the brakes right there and gives Vanitas quite the surprised look. For a long time, it's been a point of contention between the two of them. Sora thinks Vanitas should come home with him and Vanitas thinks he shouldn't. What's changed?]

What? No, that's not a Nevermind to me! It's going to what? You're okay with making friends even if you don't wanna say so?

[Explain!! He's going to jostle Vanitas.]

That has nothing to do with anything that I was going to say, Sora. There's really no need to make any more friends. We're bound to get ripped from this world anyway. You'll go back to your home and I...

[ Well. At least he doesn't immediately say it, right? This time he doesn't outright say that he'll just die. ]

So I'm fine. As is.

[Sora feels that little telltale drop in his heart when the implication is still there. Maybe things haven't changed. But he has to wonder if Vanitas thinks about it. If any of this is worth it or not.]

I think it's important for us to make memories no matter what happens to us in the future. If we're not living for what we have now how can we for the future? Making friends is always worth it.

[Yes, he will be pushy about Vanitas making friends- because he thinks it's good for him. And he doesn't want Vanitas to think they don't have a future. That's just... too sad.]

[ Well if they had still been connected, then Sora would have known better than to think that. He would have realize Van's slip for what it had been. ]

I've been wondering that myself.

[ Why is he working on all of these things... Holding on to them... If there is no future.

Maybe he does have some kind of hope buried deep. ]

[But he can't feel Vanitas to his core anymore and Sora is already frustrated enough with that distant feeling. He dislikes it so much. So much that when Vanitas says that he can't help but frown.]

Why are you wondering about it, Vanitas? It is worth it. Isn't the future important?

[Does Vanitas want to just fade away ...? Or does he really have hope? Sora is confused...]

It is if you can be guaranteed to have one.

[ Okay so maybe Sora can pick up that maybe Vanitas is starting to struggle with hope. As in, he maybe does sort of want to actually have a future? But at the same time hoping for one...

Well that's painful. Building up all this hope and then just. What happens when things don't work out? ]

[This isn't the first time this sort of conversation has come up between them. A point of contention that sits there like a river ready to overflow over the dam. Sora looks at Vanitas and he glances at the flying kitten as well and he has to think that there has to be something for them and especially for Vanitas. When they go home or where they go home it doesn't matter. Sora wants to hold onto the hope that it's there.

That's why it hurts so much every single time Vanitas seems to doubt that one little thing. That he doesn't have that... It hurts Sora. And this time it'll hurt to finally say,]

You don't think it's pointless to have us, do you? You and me? Isn't that something... you want to hope for?

[There is that twinge of frustration in Sora's voice.]

[ It's not a question that Vanitas had been anticipating. This shows by the utter wide-eyed expression that appears on his face. It probably looks comical coming from Vani, but at the same time? He hadn't... Actually thought about that. Hadn't thought that his response would upset Sora. No, that's not true. He knows that it does, but not how it does. What Vani had been under the impression of is that it's Sora's little impersonal upset - the one that comes with being a hero and being unable to change someone's mindset.

But this... He huffs. Looks down at his feet. Scowling. Glances back up at Sora. ]

I want to. [ Have hope, that is. Just hope in general but he's just so pragmatic, Sora. ] Do you honestly think that I just want to give up everything? This. You. It's mine and I told you from the start I'm not selfless. I don't want to just hand it over to someone else.

[ But it also hurts to think that he might not have a choice in that... So he'd just - ]

Name one thing, Sora. Just one thing that I've wanted and been able to keep.

[All the times they argued about this before Sora always spouted off heroisms with the hope that he would change Vanitas' mind on it all. His own feelings that Vanitas should look forward to something more, to a future where he can have a second chance to live the way he wants to. That after all of this- they'd go home and he'd be free. But as Sora's feelings changed and his heart took the route that it did it slowly changed to the feeling that his future has to include Vanitas with it. He wants to keep this. This special bond they've made and all the love Sora's felt for the other boy. His future is one he wants to share with Vanitas.

That's why it hurts so much to think that Vanitas harbors that doubt that this is for nothing, that the future isn't there for him. It makes Sora feel like there's some sort of end date to their everything and he doesn't like that feeling. It hurts.]

We've gotten this far, haven't we? This far where you've been able to keep this.

[He knows he can't keep pushing promises on Vanitas. But it's been so much time now that he has to hold on to that time. He wants the idea of them to be enough to want to think the rest of it is worthwhile.]

Can't I be enough for you to hold onto some hope that things can change?

That... See, not even you can name one thing.

[ Vanitas tries not to sound bitter about it, but it can't be helped. Again, it goes back to what he is. He is Darkness. It's been shown to him time and time again that things are just not meant to work out the way that he would like. His one single wish was to have his heart completed. To be whole. Now before he was well on his way and then being ripped from that place and dropped into this one... It's gone. That "hope" is gone and there's been no alternative found. So what's he to do?

If the one thing he really wanted and had been willing to sacrifice even himself and his dignity for is out of reach? What can he really hold onto? What hope is there when everything is - ]

And what happens when you're taken away? What happens in the next place your memory is gone? Or mine [ Vanitas takes a deep breath. ] It doesn't matter how bad I want something, Sora.

[ That's the point he's really trying to drive at. The problem is that he doesn't think that there's a future or that something isn't worth fighting for. There are things that are that important. That mean that much. The problem is that he wants it... And he's tired of hurting. ]

Maybe if you want it bad enough for the both of us...

[ So what he's saying is that he's not going to put hope into the idea. But maybe rather Sora instead? ]

It's not that I can't name one thing!

[He tries not to sound frustrated but he can't help it. His hands move to grab onto Vanitas' hands to hold him there gently but firmly. This would be so much easier if he could feel the anguish between the two of them and find a way to squish it away but he can't. He can't feel Vanitas and it makes him feel that much farther away. He would give anything to take this and fix it for Vanitas. He would rewrite the universe if he could. One day? Maybe he will.]

Fine... Let me be that one thing. I'll hope for it enough for the both of us and one day you'll see that your heart is going to be yours. I know it will be.

[He just has to keep pushing and hoping. Because he doesn't want his future to be without Vanitas. If he has to give up the rest of his heart to him someday, then so be it.]

I don't want you to think that any of this is for nothing. Even if one of us forgets my heart isn't going to.

[ It would be better if Sora could feel what Vanitas is going through as well. As it stands, Vanitas can actually feel Sora's emotions. Only the negative ones now. Only the negative ones from this point out, just like he can with everyone that he encounters.

He doesn't want to be distant. Not really. Not from Sora. Not from one of the people who really hasn't let him down. ]

If it's you, then it probably will be. Because it's you, then it has a higher chance of working out.

[ Van gives Sora's hands a squeeze in return. See how much faith he actually has in Sora? ]

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[Sora's heart feels like it's both full and achy. He holds tight to Vanitas.]

Just hold onto that, okay?

[Because he's going to hold on. They're worth it. He's worth it.]

Hey, Vanitas... You know I love you.

[ Vanitas, honestly, doesn't like it when he is the cause for Sora's distress. Back in the past, he would have. Relished it even. Yet... ]

I know. Don't think I'm not trying, Sora. It's not exactly easy.

[ He shifts a bit. From side to side. From one foot to the other. ]

Being connected made this easier. You'd just know I felt the same.

[He knows Vanitas is trying! But it's just so hard to keep going back and forth on it. It's why Sora couldn't keep it to himself anymore especially now that they can't feel each other's emotions clearly.

Speaking of those emotions, the world seems to react quite easily to those things here. And that is why Sora blinks as he swears he feels something tickle the back of his neck. He touches there and feels the flakes of soft bits of light flicker around him like playful fireflies. A reaction to Sora's emotions?

He looks back to Vanitas with a fuss still in his tone.]

I don't like not being able to feel anything anymore...!

[ Vanitas has to pause for a moment. Because he's pretty sure Sora is whining. He's whining about -

He starts bursting at the seams with laughter. Just real, true laughter. Not bittersweet or anything either. Just. He finds that funny! ]

Yeah? It's not like I like it either!

[ Relieved laughing because Sora's just giving him that stupid puffy pout because he can't be connected to Vanitas as he once was. One of the things that Vanitas had always been on edge about...

And really there had been no need to be. At all. ]

[Whoa, is he getting laughed at!? As much as that makes Sora's face burn he does like making Vanitas laugh. Even at his own expense! It's a relief from the previous tension.]

Hey! Hey, come on!!

[He snorts and tilts his head before reaching out to poke Vanitas right in the chest.]

What did we say before? If we can't have a bond we're gonna have to talk more. That means you could always say it back to me, you know?

[REVERSE UNO CARD]

[ No, Sora just doesn't understand. It's good to hear, it really is... That they can both just feel the same level of frustration over something. That they both feel like something really has been taken away from them. A little void left by one another. Vanitas has never had that, really. Ventus never thought he wasn't complete without Vanitas.

Yet Sora does, on some level. It's just... He needs that.

And gives Sora a shove in return. Huffing and soon turning back to something of a fluster. ]

I could, yes. Not when you put me on the spot.

[ Let it be natural! ]

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