I think that it's best if we both stay

[ragingscoopaholic]

Who: Bunta Marui & Leia Rolando
Which: Log; closed
Where: Woods near residential.
What: December events: gumdrop, arguments, and competitive snowball fights.
Warnings: None, but will update if necessary!


[At some point she slipped into this quiet acceptance of their situation. What was supposed to be a few days of Marui crashing at her place until he found a house has somehow ended up with them now living together for an entire month. And she doesn't feel particularly inclined to upend the status quo. Though that doesn't make the situation any easier on her emotions. She is, sadly, used to pining for someone and keeping her true feelings to herself. It's a complicated situation, one that might cost her a great deal were she to ever find the courage to confess, and those thoughts are enough to keep her mouth shut.

If she had an inkling he felt anyway special towards her, she's somehow dismissed it with some excuse, or assumed she's reading too much into it. Marui is... sweet. And he's always surprising her with little gifts and sweets, only some of which she's asked for and most of which she's only briefly mentioned and he somehow took it upon himself to get for her. But she also does the same for him, as well as using other means to gauge his interest. Like wearing cute PJs around the house, with one in particular being a little revealing. But all that she's gotten from him were a few cracks and cheeky comments which have only proven her suspicions. That his actions could be reactions to both her gestures and him staying with her- like tokens of appreciation.

Admittedly, it's hard to decipher his actions when her own mind is a fierce storm of emotions. Were she to confess to him, she will be forfeiting any feelings she could potentially have for Jude. Which is something that still worries her, as if accepting that Jude's role in her life is more familial and platonic somehow diminishes his importance to her. She just never expected to fall for anyone else. More troubling is whether or not Marui would accept the complicated role that Jude plays in her life, if not then she would lose Marui entirely, and she's left with one-sided feelings that she'd have to eventually bury and move on from.

She jokes that she's trained herself long and hard in the art of unrequited love to be able to handle this, but the thought saddens her a little. Still, it's not enough to keep her down. If anything she's appeared entirely like her normal self around everyone. Marui's a fun roommate, even if he's occasionally obnoxious, and she enjoys his company. And that's all she can really ask for. More than anything, she doesn't want to lose that by forcing something that may not even be there.

Obvious complications aside, everything else is just fine.

All of it seems habitual now, no matter how they spend their day and what isn't said, they continue their now very domesticated lifestyle. The house is still somewhat bare, and with all the new shops opening up, and the seasonal chill in the air, it felt like an opportune time to go looking for some crystal powered appliances, clothes, and whatever else they could find for the house while enjoying the wintry scene outside. It's also the type of weather one could curl up together with someone. Even as they walk along the streets of the market she has fought the urge more than once to reach for his hand. Thankfully he's none the wiser else she'd probably never hear the end of his teasing.

It doesn't take long to pick up any last minute items they might have missed, cute decorations and the like, before they soon start heading back home with their modest haul. Between what they have now and dreamotion, there's almost a sense of convenience and normalcy returning to her life and for the first time since she arrived she's starting to actually feel a sense of belonging. Like this is a second home.

Is it okay to feel this way?

Suddenly she feels some icy water slip into her boot and she stops, wincing at the discomfort the sharp chill brings, and halting the bit of small talk they had going.]

Hold up a sec, I have to fix my shoe.

[Setting everything down, she kneels and notices her shoelace is completely untied, so she takes a moment to tie it and make sure it's secure, not really paying too much attention to her surroundings. When she's finished, she straightens up and looks around... noticing a certain someone is gone.]

Hm? Marui?

Comments

[volleygenius]

Wanna know what's obvious? You have zero sense of self-awareness.

[ This is still about appeasing that noisy slug, isn't it? She seems to be faltering a little. ]

[ragingscoopaholic]

Now who's the one looking into a mirror?

[If this is feeling more like a real argument than a fake one, that's because... it sure is. At least on her end. She's been guarding her feelings for a while now, all the while he's been- well, she has no idea, really. Is he toying with her? Has he been this whole time? His comments earlier have certainly made her think so with how casually he remarked fooling some slug into thinking he holds any affection towards her.

Her only experience has been crushing on Jude since they were little, and she sure thought things would've turned out differently. In actuality, she really has no experience with anyone reciprocating her feelings at all, much less having any for her.]

[volleygenius]

Still you. I've got plenty of that.

[ He knows how he feels. He knows why he's saying what he is. He knows this is why he didn't want to go this route. ]

[ragingscoopaholic]

And where do you get off on making such baseless accusations in the first place?

[volleygenius]

Before you throw that at me, try and back your own.

[ragingscoopaholic]

I see you dodge questions as well as you do snowballs.

[volleygenius]

Sure. I can dodge anything.

[ Not even gonna deny it. ]

[ragingscoopaholic]

[She's officially tired of this, and that's mostly because she let a lot of her frustration get in the way. And at the end of it, the only thing that's clear is that her suspicions are probably right.

Signing heavily, she mutters while glaring at the slug.]

Keep it up and maybe you'll have a future as a politician too.

[Because for as hearty an argument as they seem to be having, the little red slug is still there.]

Ugh, forget it. This thing isn't going away. Maybe we can outrun it?

[volleygenius]

[ It's only a couple of moments before he lowers his voice and says challengingly. ]

Running away?

[ragingscoopaholic]

[Yeah. She knows that tone. But, as it turns out, this wasn't a good idea.

She turns to him.]

Weren't you the one that was against arguing?

[volleygenius]

Heh. So you're allowed to change your mind but I'm not? Bring it on!

[ragingscoopaholic]

Bring what on? [sighs.] Look, I'm beginning to suspect this thing wants a physical altercation of some kind, so unless you want to get punched in the face, I suggest we try to ditch it.

[She, of course, would not be averse to punching him in the face at this point.]

[volleygenius]

[ No. Something is bothering her. He wants it out. ]

That's big talk for someone who just said I was good at dodging. Hit me if you can!

[ragingscoopaholic]

[Big talk? The hell is his deal? If he's going to act like that...

She glares at him.]

Excuse me? I'm trying to give you an out so I don't pummel you.

[volleygenius]

[ He could care less about a few punches. He's not that fragile. He's going to clear this air, one way or another.

In one swift motion, he dips down, scoops up a handful of snow, packs it as he stands, and throws it at her face. ]

[ragingscoopaholic]

[And suddenly there's a snowball heading for her face--]

H-Hey--!!

[Which she just barely dodges before fixing her glare back on him. Seriously- is he riling her up on purpose?

... Screw it- doesn't matter. She's definitely riled up.]

Just remember, you asked for this.

[Yet, despite him egging her on, she lets blind frustration take over and quickly closes the short gap between them, throwing a punch towards his face.]

[volleygenius]

[ What's wrong? It's something about him, he's nearly certain. The way she was acting, the things she said to him. He can't just drop this.

He takes a step backward to offset her move forward and jerks his head out of the path of her fist. ]

[ragingscoopaholic]

[Now the little slug seems fired up, it dances happily in the air, chanting "fight, punch, smash!!" as it watches them.

But Leia hardly pays it any mind, and just as he jerks his head out of the way, she pivots, her reflexes kicking in sharply, and she throws another punch- aiming for his cheek.]

[volleygenius]

[ Marui likewise is paying no attention to the slug, largely because all of his focus is on avoiding Leia's fists. To his credit, his reflexes and balance are quite good, and he evades her swings one after another. ]

You'll have to do better than that!

[ragingscoopaholic]

I'm just warming up!

[It's no surprise that he can dodge her attacks, but it is infuriating. His goading isn't helping things... and neither is the argument from earlier that still permeates much of her senses.

She notes the position of his feet, trying to predict which way he'll move- then she feints left, but swings right, aiming for his cheek once again.]

[volleygenius]

Same for me!

[ That feint comes frighteningly close, though. Close enough that the side of her fist brushes his cheek as he gets it out of the way. ]

So, what is it?

[ragingscoopaholic]

If I were you, I'd focus less on talking and more on dodging.

[She's hardly in the mood to talk and doubles her efforts, every strike generating more heat in the air which the slug seems to eagerly devour, and the second he dodges, she swings again, giving him no recovery time.]

[volleygenius]

[ She wasn't kidding about warming up! He can actually feel the hot energy radiating off her. And that slug--!

It's a split-second's distraction that costs him, and her fists tags his jaw, throwing his balance off. He staggers backward two paces to keep from slipping and falling.

And then he seems to come to a decision and doesn't move again from where he's standing. ]

[ragingscoopaholic]

[The second her fist connects with his jaw it's like a big rush of energy is released- heat swells and bursts, and a nearby branch falls to the ground, unbearably loud as the silence between them quickly settles in. It stops Leia in her tracks, staring wide-eyed at the reddening mark on his jaw, the heat she generated certainly a key factor in making that worse.

At some point, the slug, fully appeased, disperses, leaving behind a faint red glow before fading away completely.

But she doesn't even notice its exit, in fact, she can't even recall the last time she heard it chanting. Her gaze is fixed on Marui, whose stumbled back from the sheer force of her swing and is now just...

Standing there. Unmoving.

Just like that, the frustration completely fades, but it's quickly replaced by sinking guilt. She... hadn't meant to throw so hard of a punch. She hadn't meant to act on her frustrations- or even have them to begin with. Yet, here she is, the damage is done, and at what cost? Even if he practically asked for it, goaded her- in a clearer mind set, and had she actually stopped to think, she'd have noticed he might have been intentionally baiting her.

But she never stops and thinks, she took the bait and reacted. She really blew it. Totally, and utterly blew it.

Maybe he doesn't want her near him now. Hell, he's probably pissed. And it's that thought that keeps her locked in place, afraid that she's just ruined everything. The fact is, though, she hurt him, and after a moment's hesitation, she's approaching him, clearly concerned.]

Crap! I, I'm so sorry! I wasn't trying to hit that hard--

[She looks around for something, then looks down, and stoops to grab a small clump of snow with her bare hands.]

H-Here... [gently, she places her left hand on his good cheek, to keep his head in place as she carefully places the bit of snow with her other hand on his injured jaw- practically cupping his face.] This should help.

[volleygenius]

[ It takes him a bit off-guard when she stops instead of following through and getting a cleaner punch in. That was the whole point of stopping, after all. If she didn't want him to talk and dodge at the same time, he'd cut out the distraction.

Well, whatever that tension was, it's gone now (along with the slug), so success? Except he still doesn't have any answers.

What he has is Leia standing a short distance away looking far more upset about what she just did than she ought to. He was aiming for this from the moment he asked if she was running away. Even without the goading, she doesn't need to be making such a big deal of it. No insult to her strength, but it really doesn't hurt that much. That's less to do with her power and more to do with Marui's basis for comparison, namely Sanada. Hitting was a commonplace occurrence at Rikkaidai's tennis club. It's kind of cute how she fusses and frets about it like she's done any kind of lasting damage, physical or otherwise. It takes more than that to get rid of him. He was still a Regular, after all.

The snow stings his face, but he lets her hold it there. It's ironic, and a little frustrating, how she's allowed to touch him so intimately like this but he can't be affectionate back. Like the hand-warming a few minutes ago. That's not necessary, indirect for Please stop. Why does she act like this, hot and cold like the set of palms clasping his jawline? ]

I wish you'd make up your mind... What do you really think of me?