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tifa lockhart. ([personal profile] starshower) wrote in [community profile] songerein2022-09-02 04:42 pm
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closed ⚡🌠 can we come back from this

Who: Eustace & Tifa
Which: Closed log
Where: Their treehouse, corgi tree, maybe some other places
What: After Eustace's Noctaere episode, he and Tifa try to put their relationship back together.
Warnings: Trauma, lots of sads, and then probably gross fluff after.


[It had been a struggle even getting home. After they and the others had arrived at Ori's home together, it was at Tifa's insistence that she and Eustace go back to theirs. For as grateful and appreciative as she was for all their help in saving the both of them, there are some things that Tifa would rather they be alone for, and this... whatever this is, is one of them. Never mind the guilt that she feels for having been the one to put them all through it—Eustace can argue with her all he likes, and they can all contend that they shouldn't feel that way, that none of it was her fault, but ever since she woke up from her weakened and frozen state, Tifa couldn't look any one of them in the eye.

Including Eustace.

Even as she walks with their arms slung around each other for support with Eria at their side, the journey home is silent. Only the stirrings of dawn can be heard—the birds that chirp in the canopies, the sound of dew dripping from the leaves, but nothing is quite so loud as their staggered footsteps, or her heart beating wildly in her chest, and her blood roaring in her ears.

Tifa tries to keep her anxiety to a minimum, tries to keep her thoughts straight, but all she can see are the claws of those lindworms as they came down to strike, and their scales that shimmered as they slithered around her. All she can hear are his desperate cries, and the sound of ice and electricity crackling as her vision darkened and her consciousness had begun to fade... She remembers the chill, the grips of death when it threatened to consume her, how cold his fingers were as they brushed against her face. The red in his eyes...

And then when she woke and saw the destruction he'd left behind. Saw her friends bruised and battered from battle. Saw him like that...

The thought is cut short by a sharp breath when they finally arrive at the foot of the stairs leading up to their home, her boot bumping against them when she hadn't been paying attention. The climb up is as dreadful as everything else had been, and she can feel the heat under her boots, the fires that try to claw their way out of the cage she tries to lock them in, to struggle against the trail of ice that forms in their wake. Even the tree's branches and leaves shudder as they walk through the front door, the flowers that decorate their tree that were once bright and vibrant freezing over and shriveling up, dying without a fighting chance.

It isn't until they're safely inside that Tifa so much as looks at him for the first time since they were at Ori's. Perhaps even before. Really looks at him. He's bruised and cut up, and he looks more tired than she's ever seen him.

Her hands fold together as she skirts her gaze away again, down to where she tries to stop her fingers from trembling when she bites back the urge to sob.

Tifa wants to say something, but... what is she even supposed to say? What can she say right now that would make this easier for both of them? She searches and searches her mind for an answer to the question that's been wracking her since they left the cliffside, but she's still coming up short of nothing.

Eria trots over and nudges Tifa with her nose, as if to encourage her to say something to break this tense silence before it all snaps. So, she blurts out the first thing that comes to mind in a voice so tiny that she's not even sure she's said anything at all, and it crackles, as if this is the first time she's ever spoken a word in her life. It certainly feels that way right now.]


... Do you want to get cleaned up first?

[First.

She kicks herself for it. Any other day and she would have suggested together, but her fear—not of him, but fear for them—is getting the better of her, and maybe that's for the best.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-21 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
I'll always worry about you.

[He shifts slightly so that he's looking up at her, eyes meeting hers.]

...In fact...you should want me to worry about you.
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-21 03:36 am (UTC)(link)
...Hm.

[He doesn't look too convinced...but he's also too exhausted to argue the point further. If she has a bad dream...he's certain he'll notice and rush to her aid. And he knows she'll do the same. So he just stares at her for a moment longer before he leans up for a proper kiss, one that lingers and steeped in the warm love and care he holds for her.]

...Sweet dreams.
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-21 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
[It all starts peaceful enough...or as peaceful as it can be given the circumstances. For Eustace, her heartbeat had been a strong lullaby that allowed him to slip into a not quite dreamless sleep. In his dreams he's just lying in an open field covered in starflowers, his head resting on Tifa's chest as she lays next to him, gently and lovingly run her hand through his hair. He can hear the steady, rhythmic beating of her heart, so soft yet strong. And in the distance he can hear the sounds of the dogs barking and playing.

It's peaceful. Quiet. Everything he could ever want...to last forever.

Until at some point, a strange...clicking sound breaks through the soft ripples of the flowers. It starts faint, steady, and it takes him a moment to realize it ticks in time to the sound of Tifa's heart. But then it steadily grows louder, and his eyes snap open as he sits up to stare at Tifa who only smiles at him curiously, her brilliant red eyes questioning his actions and almost beckoning him to return. She reaches out to him, and although he can't shake off the strange feeling, he softly smiles and reaches out in turn to touch her cheek, wanting to brush back her hair.

But the moment he does, ice erupts from his hands and he jerks back wide eyed as he can only watch in horror as the ice quickly encases her, her form turning more into statue of ice.

Ha... Ha...

The ticking sound continues, and he doesn't realize his ragged breaths are in time to it as he looks around. It's then he hears that ominous crackling of ice beneath him, and as he hastily staggers to feet the ice spreads out through the once vibrant field, freezing everything in its path.]


...No—this is a dream.

[He realizes then, that what he's seeing is another dream, another nightmare. He needs to steel himself, try and take control of it. Force himself to wake up before it gets worse.

But that ticking sound...the sound of a heartbeat.

Although he tries to resist, his eyes turn back to where Tifa remains frozen, her expression still so peaceful and oblivious to what happened.

Tick tick tick

Thump thump thump


...If he gets her out, maybe this could all turn around. If he can just heat up the ice, imagine the warmth he gives her, remember their love—

He can do this.

There's nothing to fear.



The ticking and beating grow louder, pounding in unison as he reaches out to that extended hand frozen in midair, as if reaching out to him. He pictures her smile, her laugh, her radiance—

The fear in her eyes.

It was for a moment. Just a very brief flicker. But it would prove to be a fatal one as that terrified expression from that night appears on the statue's face right as his fingertips had brushed against hers. A loud crack echoes loudly through the space, the hand breaking apart.]


—!

[Piece by piece she falls, each one in time to that ticking beating sound that thunders in his head. And when the last piece falls—

Tick

Thump



There's a heavy weight of silence before everything breaks apart around him.







When they had fallen asleep nestled close together, the room had been warm, flowers blooming here and there as if absorbing that warmth to transform into soft glittering lights. But now a cold chill descends upon them, the lights extinguishing in a flash to plummet everything into darkness. Eustace stirs, the hand that had been around Tifa's waist digging into her as he gasps in his sleep—until a sharp cold will pierce her skin, ice forming around his fingertips and slowly frosting over his body.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-21 03:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[The darkness seems to stretch in forever to the point she might question if she entered his dream at all. If she steps forward she will find there is firm "ground" but she won't hear her footsteps. If she reaches out there is nothing to touch, only a seemingly neverending darkness with no light or anything to guide her.

But it is cold, and the longer she stays the colder it gets.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-21 03:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[As brilliant as her flame is, the darkness is still overwhelming with nothing in sight. However, she can now see the floor beneath her is solid ice—no, perhaps it's rock frozen over. In that moment a strong burst of icy wind and snow slams into her, thunder rumbling in the distance. The force is so strong, as if to snuff out the flame and push her back.

And yet.

Carried in that biting wind are faint sounds, faint voices.

Don't look.

Leave.


Soft, but forceful. Desperate.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-21 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[...

How admirable.


The voice takes a strange stone compared to before, and as Tifa's flames grow, the wind lessens...or perhaps the winds are becoming more permissive. Regardless, her fires will warm her and allow to proceed forward.

It will take some time, but eventually she will suddenly break out of the darkness like bursting through a black fog and stumble into vast field of snow. Like before, there's nothing else to see, just endless snow and cold winds that continue to try and beat against her.

This time the winds carry the sounds of a child sobbing.

No!

Why!

If only I stayed home!

I don't want to be alone!

Kill them... I'll kill them!

Can't lose...again...


From to anger back to grief and then hatred again. The voice cycles through the emotions no young boy should have, but it does as Tifa ventures forward until she spots a small figure in the far distance moving away from her.

But before she can reach him, even if she's just within her grasp, a giant wall of ice will erupt in front of her. This, too, will seem and feel familiar.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-22 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
[The fire is resisted at first, the wall seeming to thicken to obstruct her attempt. But it will eventually give way, slowly, very slowly until at least an opening forms just large enough for her to pass through. But when she does, the wall immediately seals back up, trapping her within.

In front of her is large ice cavern with several iced over paths that span over a dark, empty abyss, almost like veins. Each one is thin, ice slowly chipping away as cracks slowly form. There's a loud tremor, a distant roar—thunder?—and a few paths crumble apart reducing her options and weakening the others. It's clear if there's one wrong misstep or the path gives way, she'll fall into the darkness beneath—and she'll have to hurry before the next tremor.

But that one tremor does reveal a light on the far side of the chasm. She just has to make it over.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-22 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
[The light will lead her to another opening, just large enough for her to pass through. As soon as she crosses over that threshold, there's a loud CRASH as the rest of the paths crumble into the abyss, and the opening behind sealing shut.

Blinding sunlight will greet her as well as the thick scent of flowers—starflowers. It's a vast field that looks so different, so bright and lively compared to what she went through before. Yet it's also...empty. The flowers sway to an invisible wind, but there's nothing here. No sounds, no people—nothing. Nothing except...

In the center there looks to be someone lying in the middle of the flowers, and when Tifa investigates she will find—herself.

Sleeping in the middle of that field all alone is the very likeness of Tifa, the flowers gently swaying over her and occasionally brushing over her cheeks. The chest rises and falls, indicating some semblance of life—but she will not stir or awaken.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-22 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Rather than a voice coming in front of her, one answers from behind.]

I have.

[When she turns around, she'll find Eustace standing there... But the red eyes tell everything, even if there's no frost on his skin or dark shadows around him.

And just as he speaks, there's a tremor similar to the one in the caves that rumbles beneath them, causing the flowers to shake and sway.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-22 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Unlike usual, "Eustace" doesn't try to reach out to her when she approaches, but he does smirk in amusement when she draws back and places herself between him and the body lying their on the ground. He only leans slightly to the side as if to take a glimpse before he focuses his attention her.]

Cute.

[He takes a step forward.]

But do you really want to find him now? You won't like what you see.
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-22 03:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[The smirk widens as his eyes flick down to her hands before back up to her face, and he continues to approach her undeterred.]

I'm only warning you for your sake...and his as well.

[He stops within arm's reach, red eyes gleaming.]

Did you ever consider he might not want you to see him? That you only make it worse?

[As if on cue, a distant roar is heard, the ground shaking more violently than before.]
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[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-22 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Red eyes glimmer in amusement.]

For now...

[All he takes is one step, yet he manages to cover the distance so that he's right in front of her, looming over her as he smiles.]

But since I can't refuse you, I'll lead you to him.

[The ground trembles and starts cracking beneath her before it suddenly opens up to make her fall through. Her other self can be seen floating beside the nightmare entity and he runs a finger down the pale cheek.]

So long as you exist, I'll be here for a while...


[Down down down Tifa will fall, the dark earth changing to frigid ice as the blue sky from above disappears and she's enveloped in darkness. As she falls she'll hear the sounds and cries of everything Eustace has had to face, not all of them nightmarish, but challenging all the same. The screams of a boy finding his village burned and destroyed. The barking orders of strict officers. The deathly cries of enemies and allies falling in battle, monster and human alike. Hail of bullets. Booming thunder. Clicks and whirs of machines. Water. Gasping breaths.

Dammit, no—! Come on, stay with me!

Sounds of war. The deafening roar of a cursed creature that shakes the seemingly neverending tunnel, echoing so loud it will shake her to her bones.

No, I... What did I...??

I'm sorry—I'm so sorry—

No—no no no Tifa no—please, Tifa—Tifa—NO—!


The ice walls stained blue and black flicker as streaks of dark red flow down, some dripping on her as the thick smell of iron fills the space before at last her fall is broken by a deep red pool.]
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CW: gore, body mutilation, blood, death, it's like a lot of stuff

[personal profile] flamekthunder 2022-09-23 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
[There won't be an answer but she will eventually be able to see a crack through the walls that will allow her to swim through. Here lightning flashes over the bloody, icy walls, illuminating the way but revealing gruesome shadows sealed within. Mangled bodies both human and monster appear trapped within, echoes of their ghastly screams before ripples of lightning cut them off. Eventually she will find a ledge to pull herself up onto a narrow, singular path, the air chilling.

As she walks, her shoes will squelch along the bloodied ground, the shadows within the iced walls becoming more visceral and soon—recognizable.

Beat missing his side and arm as if ripped away, neck crushed.

Trahearne and Oriphi frozen with their chests torn open, charred by lightning.

Beatrix face down, burnt and torn asunder, barely recognizable.

Aerith hanging on the short ceiling skewered through the chest.

Susato bloated and ghastly blue, hands outstretched as if clawing for air.

A few feet more and she'll stumble over something—a frozen arm that rolls down the path she just came. And when she looks forward she will find herself in what looks like a horrific battlefield, dyed red and black. Lightning rips through the blood red skies as black ice rises from the bloodied ground. And scattered everywhere are various corpses...of her.

Frozen over, drowned, cut or clawed through, burned, torn apart—the bodies lie scattered, some piled on top of each other. It seems endless.

And in the distance a blood curdling scream is heard—of her own voice. It's followed by a ghastly roar of a black lindwurm, its bloodied fangs bared as it lunges to strike the woman running away.]
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